Thursday, 17 June 2010
Last night was wonderful :)
It was the book launch for the anthology I was lucky enough to be included in, and it was so much lovelier than I expected. I don't do well with the centre-of-attention thing, and I was sort-of-looking-forward-to-it while also definitely-kind-of-dreading-it. I have this tendency to get uber-embarrassed by all things I-write-poetry-related, and this was no exception. I thought I would spend the whole evening looking a little green around the gills and visibly quivering.
But mostly, I just felt lucky that so many people came to support me (even if I did feel judderingly embarrassed and nervous about it all). My three best friends. My sister. My friends' parents. Sometimes, I pretend that I'm in this little bubble, which is all well and good, but sometimes it's beautiful to break that bubbleskin and breathe the air outside it and hear what the people you love and who love you are saying to you: congratulations, and we love you, and well done!
I appear to have gone all Pollyanna. I do apologise.
I will be grumpy and disgustingly unappreciative next time, I promise :)
Posted by Cheryl at 23:50
Monday, 14 June 2010
Wednesday, 2 June 2010
5 things you cannot live without? 4 things you like about yourself? 3 things that can always make you happy? 2 things you are passionate about? 1 thing you will always remember?
5 things I cannot live without:
1. Notebooks - I have notebooks for everything. I have one that is solely for lists, another for bits and pieces of poems - just the idea, or a first line, or an image. I have another for drawings and doodlings. I have another where I keep a note of all the books I have read. Another for things I want to remember. And so on and so on, to notebook infinity : )
2. Poetry - I literally eat, breathe and sleep poetry. I read it, I write it. I honestly think poetry keeps me from going crazy. It's my way of putting the world into some sort of order.
3. Lipbalm - I keep a different lipbalm in every bag I own so that even if I forget to take one with me, I have one available. My favourite is strawberry chapstick, which actually tastes like candyfloss.
4. Moisturiser - Even when I hated everything about the way I looked, I was grateful for my good skin. Consequently, I have always looked after it. I also love that good moisturisers smell amazing so that you get a gorgeous scent every time you move. I particularly love the Kate Moss moisturiser - it smells like roses, and lasts for ever.
5. Cheese - if I could only eat one food for the rest of my life, it would be cheese. I love it. Brie with grapes. Stinky blue-veined Stilton. Mature cheddar with pickle. Crumbly goats' cheese. Any cheese! All cheese!
4 things I like about myself:
1. I am very creative.
2. I am a hopeless romantic.
2. I am a hopeless romantic.
3. I'm a bit odd.
4. I will do anything I can to help you or make you happy.
3 things that can always make me happy:
2. Black and white photographs.
3. A bubblebath with a glass of wine and a book.
2 things I am passionate about:
1 thing I will always remember:
The night in Las Vegas where my two closest friends and I went dancing all night and then instead of going back to our hotel and going to bed, we climbed the padlocked railings by the pool and curled up on the sunloungers in the dark. We trailed our hands in the water and looked up at all the neon lights and talked for hours and hours, and then we watched the sun rise over the Strip. I took a photograph of the three of us, and we look so young and happy and lovely - I framed it afterwards, and I keep it by my bed.
Posted by Cheryl at 20:37
I had the most wonderful weekend...and not just because it was eventful (although every event was marvellous), but because I spent time with some of my favourite people.
Friday, we went to see Lady Gaga in Birmingham, and because my friend's boss (who booked the tickets) is exceptionally generous, we ended up with front row seats for which we only paid a fraction of the cost. The concert was AMAZING. We were literally within touching distance, and the sets were incredible - creepy, twisted versions of Central Park, crappy alleys with junked cars whose bonnets opened to reveal glittering keyboards and burning pianos - AMAZING. I am a total art junkie, and this concert was art, from the sequinned, skyscraper heels to the lightbulb-studded catwalk.
Then Saturday, one of my schoolfriends got married - we drank champagne, laughed and laughed and laughed, ate wonderful food and danced on dancefloors spinning with green sparks. Both bride and groom were beaming the whole day, and it was so lovely to see them all flushed and radiant and happy. I wore a dress I felt pretty in, and my sister braided the front of my hair in a sort of band - and I remember sitting in this gorgeous room, all sage-and-white ribbon, thinking how even a year ago, I wouldn't have enjoyed myself; I would've been too busy comparing myself to everyone else in the room and falling short. Which would have been so SILLY.
Sunday, we went to my friend Joanne's Grandma's 90th birthday party, which was a tea party, and absolutely adorable, and then yesterday, Steven and I went to the new Marco Pierre White restaurant near where we live, and then for a lazy wander around the Tate in Liverpool. Which was just a lovely end to a beautiful weekend.
I look at my life, and I want to cry, I am so happy (this is so new! And so wonderful!)
I am a lucky, lucky, lucky girl.
Posted by Cheryl at 00:06